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Sunday, January 11, 2009

Smile like you mean it


I would be sad because you left me all alone.
I would be sad because the lies that you had told.
I would be sad because I got left by a girl that I adore.
I would be sad because the love I had before.

I meant what I said when I said I would settle down with you although I know it's not something that you were asking me to do.
And I know we are young but we won't always be, so marry me; lets not be that predictable young couple changing, moving on.
But I can tell by watching you that there's no chance of pushing through.
The odds are so against us; you know most young love it ends like this.

I would be sad because you left me all alone.
I would be sad because the lies that you had told.
I would be sad because I got left by a girl that I adore.
I would be sad for all the love I had before.

I meant what I said when I said I would rearrange my plans and change for you.
You know me; I've always been the kind with easy confidence.
Confident enough to honestly believe that nothing out there stopping me especially not someone who's not loving me.
Now listen here I told you I could live on with out loving you.
I was bluffing then, but it seems that just might have been the truth.
Well my dad told me, "One day son, this girl will think of what she's done and hurting you will be the first of many more regrets to come."
And he said, "If she doesn't call, then it's her fault and it's her loss."
I say, "It's not that simple see, but then again it just may be."

I would be sad because you left me all alone.
I would be sad for the lies that you had told.
I would be sad because I got left by a girl that I adored.
I would be sad for all the love I had before.
I would be sad for all the love I had before.


~The Avett Brothers
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Saturday, March 22, 2008

Oh look you've earned your wings. Are you an angel now or a vulture?

random facts in my life that make me laugh:

*i once ordered a hamburger on a first date and he laughed.

*i've been told on more that one occasion that i keep people sharp. they always feel like they have to have a ready smart quip or comeback when speaking with me.

*i am FINALLY able to recognize when i'm lonely and then suddenly be okay with being single.

*i am only still alive because it is free to breath. i cannot afford much more than that.

*my best friend thinks i'm funny.

*an exboyfriend thinks i've gotten funnier (even better).

*i think i'm ''good on paper'' but not so much of a follow through

*my brothers and sisters look up to me (when, really, it's i who look up to them)

*i know that for the rest of my life i will have unconditional love from two humans not related to me

*who needs more than that?

*my idea of a splurge is buying ramen

*i have crushes on boys that don't live in my time zone (this funny fact is something i'm still working on fixing)

*when i was a little girl i wanted to be a football player or a model

*i have two modes while interacting with others- shy and not as shy

*i go two steppin at least twice a week now (and i'm getting good)

*i eat one meal a day and am gaining weight (how is this fair?)

 

 

so, those are random tidbits in my life that when i reflect on make me snicker (or at least smile)


Saturday, February 02, 2008

Who the hell is looking at my xanga from Belgium, NY, D.C. and FL?

 

and do i know them? yikes!


Sunday, January 27, 2008

We didn't count the money or the days.

so, i'm pretty convinced that i am a great 'starter' girlfriend but not so much worth a follow through. also- i have reason to believe that every guy i've dated has become rediculously happier since breaking up with me.

 

tyler- married

nick- happily dating someone whom his parents DONT hate.

john- dating someone and has graduated from film school

jeff- found a major that he is truely interested in and works on a farm where he gets to brew his own beer 'Tru Brew' (both facts which make him very very happy)

cory- not sure. dont speak with him. still, i'm sure he's happier now that he doesnt have to worry about a long distance relationship. (logistically speaking, he was not my smartest choice BUT his family was the first ones to like me)

doc- in NY chasing his spurned love, looking for a 'desk job' (ugh!) and playing the guitar. basically being an urban hippie who's looking to work for the man. (has a girlfriend who is NOT cora but still- he sounded happy when i spoke to him last).

 

of the five fellows i've dated; i've been in love twice, have had impossible love once, have been smitten once, have learned the signs of a rebound, have been cheated on, and really have nothing to show for it except a bitterness that grows inside of me. not so much so that i dont believe in love. i just dont believe in true blue, earth shaking, heart stopping, feel it in your knees love that i've always thought i would find. and that's okay. i'm 21. i think that my time has passed for that kind of love. now, i'm looking forward to meeting someone who will just take me as i am. flaws and all and be okay with me. i'm not giving up and i'm not settling but i'm not going in with false hopes anymore. it's time i learned the to toughen up.

 

i'll leave this 'emo' post with one of my favorite quotes from an Avett Brothers song:

'My heart is like a mason's hands with weathered skin;
 each scar makes it harder for me to hurt again.'

 


Wednesday, March 14, 2007

he seems like he'd be a gentle giant

edit1 edit15 edit55 edit12 edit7 edit12 edit24 this spring break has been amazing. i've spent tons of time with my bes frens. monday was spent working/hanging out. tuesday was spent smiling in texarkana.today is going to be filled with picture taking and laughing. who knows what the future holds for us tomorrow....

 

 

pics soon!

 

 

 

 

i love my life. just be jealous.

 

 

Crowatowan!!!!



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